BEX, 10:23 a.m.
Happy 4th
of july!
❤Faustus Blackwood
BEX, 10:23 a.m.
Happy 4th
of july!
❤Faustus Blackwood
CAMILLE, 3:01 p.m.
Hey Sigyn
SIGYN
Hey, what's
up?
CAMILLE
How have
you been? Are the meds helping?
I didn’t
know you were having a rough time. Hope things are looking up.
SIGYN
Yes,
actually! I forgot to take them for a while and then something happened that
cleared up the bulk of my depression (which is usually situational) and then I
got back into a routine and now I have tons of energy
CAMILLE
I’m so glad
you’re noticing a difference💗 I know depression to be a bitch.
How awful. Glad you’re doing better :)
I had
actually been thinking about you a couple of times and wanted to shoot you a
msg but forgot your specific name change on fb so I wasn’t sure what to do 😂😂
SIGYN
Oh XD yeah
I went back to using my real name on Facebook
CAMILLE
It’s so
cool, your parents did a good job haha
SIGYN
Actually,
it's not my given name
But thank
you XD
CAMILLE
Oh,
apologies!
Assumptions
are too easily made 🙈
Hey the
reason I wanted to msg you originally was to check in on you because I hadn’t
seen you pop up on my feed for a lil while & also to send you sort of a bit
of a thank you, if you will.
I believe
you had posted something along the lines of thinking/knowing you have ASPD and
it had gotten the ball rolling of me thinking about whether I should have
“myself” checked out again. It’s a bit of a story, but I’ve spiralled again
myself recently, which has led to mental health services to actually take it
seriously at some point, and I’m pretty sure that without your posts, I
wouldn’t have been at the level of self-awareness I’m at now. So, thank you.
(They are
not looking at me as BPD anymore but treating me as NPD/AsPD lmao it’s wild)
SIGYN
so I had
some drama with a friend and just left this account for a little while. I was
still on some of my roleplay accounts and I created a new hybrid account for
both real life and roleplay stuff. I wasn't sure if I should add you on it but
I added some people I knew in meatspace.
I have
antisocial-like-behaviors and tendencies, but I do not fully qualify for ASPD.
I am glad to have helped though! And sorry for your mental health problems :(
I don't
know you well, but I haven't really seen you exhibit anything characteristic of
NPD/ASPD? Granted, I'm not a professional, but abnormal psychology is one of my
special interests
/END
3:27 PM
Jan 07, 11:31:01am
Kraven
Riverson
Hi
Mar 24, 11:42:14pm
Blaine Menchineel
Hi, how are you?
Mar 25, 10:42:39pm
KRAVEN
Ok you
Mar 26, 2:37:21am
BLAINE
I'm doing well enough, い
I suppose
KRAVEN, 10:09 p.m.
Aw
10:18 p.m.
NI
OH JEEZ....... My husband just for MOODY AS
FUCK AT ME
SIGYN
WHY
NI
Literally unprovoked other than he tried to
grab my nose then my hand then tried to flop his arm on my and I'm legit laying
here DYING
Like cool talk, touch places that don't
make it so I can't even look at TikTok and places that don't hurt
But noooo and he immediately three a
tantrum like I'd told him to go away and die 🤦♀️
Which I didn't I said stop like twice
Didn't even snap either
Who the fucks on their period? Almost
forgot just now 😂
SIGYN
Mine constantly pesters me for attention
when I'm writing or watching TV and then gets mad when I ask him to stop
"you're being so rude to me"
NI
Oh yeah mine to. He just did.
SIGYN
good talk, you're blocking the television /
distracting me from my story
NI
Like I'm about to be pissed
SIGYN
"I wish I didn't have to beg for
attention" then don’t
NI
RIGHT!!!??? Bitches acting like we NEVER do
anything with them and we should just CONSTANTLY be all over them
SIGYN
He thinks we don't have enough sex, but
like, I've told him multiple times to give me the space to let me come to him,
but he DOESNT and then whines about me "losing interest" or "I
feel like this relationship isn't working anymore because you're not attracted
to me"
but yet he gets wigged out whenever I'm in
masc phase
NI
The most annoying part is mine’s a trucker
so he like uses it as a weapon
"I've been gone all week how dare you
have OTHER plans!!!"
SIGYN
BRO I WAS ALL OVER HIM AND NEVER DID
ANYTHING WITHOUT HIM. EIGHT YEARS AGO, WHEN WE MET. THAT WENT BADLY.
NI
....... Oh my god let me tell you. I
totally understand
SIGYN
I had a Bella Swan reaction a few times
when his family herded him away from me. Was actually institutionalized for
intensive grief rehab once.
NI
Oi..... See and I just need space.
Naturally
So like he should know this by now comes
home. Knows I'm on my period and hurting. Knows I'm funked out
Proceeds to start drama over NOTHING with
me
Oh god I'm sorry dude :/
SIGYN
and now he's like "oh you're losing
interest" because I'm actually a whole person with whole interests. I quit
RP to spend more time with him and then got abandoned and then he wanted to get
back together but be poly and then didn't want to be together because of my
chronic (stress induced) illness
So I had to learn to be my own person and
now that I'm a fully separate human being he's whiny
Yeah sometimes men get their meriods
at the same time
Just to be annoying
thanks, it sucked but I learned a couple
things
NI
And you should not be quitting hobbies for
anyone...... But oi I HATE when they do that kinda shit. Mines constantly OVET
ANALYSING "you've been so weird lately yada yada*
SIGYN
RIGHT??
No like he told me to get back into doing
the things that made me happy, but now when I'm doing them I hyper focus and I
don't want to be interrupted. And when I started going back to the gym he was
like oh you get to go out and go places and I have to stay and take care of the
baby but you get to go out every day
Bitch, to the gym!
Oh yeah I hate that the oh you've been so
weird lately, you're so distant, our relationship isn't like it used to be.
BUDDY. our relationship used to be toxic as fuck because I literally couldn't
tolerate being separated from you for more than 8 hours.
And like he was unhappy when I was cleaning
to him all the time but now he says that he misses that because it was like I
was actually interested in him back then
Like I'm sorry that I'm a recovered sex
addict and that my symptoms have gone into remission? I'm sorry that now I have
bodily autonomy and I don't require sex as validation? And, no, I don't want to
do it that often anymore. I actually kind of lost interest in the act itself
when I realized I don't need it for validation anymore. But you know who does
like to have it all the time? One of my alters. My male alter.
NI
Yo I FEEL..... Lol
But yuck! Man that sounds soooo familiar
except MY husband is sitting around missing the new relationship days. Like he
can't get over the fucking fact we've been together ages and have a kid and
life now so of course I'm not just following him everywhere acting happy 24/7
around him. That wasn't the REAL me
He got to slowly know the real me now he
gets all of it and wants to BITCH
SIGYN
Blech awful
NI
Yeah it's extremely frustrating
To be told how "I'm always
miserable" apparently
SIGYN
It's like they want to be fawned over but
they don't want to be like have expectations on them and they don't want to be
fawned over too much
What the fuck you're not always miserable
you're a delight
NI
AHAHAHAHA yeah I'm aware. He doesn't
fucking get it though. Of I'm not wanting to run off into the blue to walk
around Walmart or fuck in the semi 24/7 I must be a miserable bag of shit
Last week he basically told me to get a
hobby
SIGYN
But you have a hobby. This is your hobby.
NI
Until it immediately backfired and slapped
him in the FACE
I was like name your hobbies
Wait no I said
"If you were home all week. What would
you do?"
He goes. "Uuhh watch TV?"
So I pointed to my phone
"Work on my car?"
So I pointed to the Xbox
And he was just like "Oh...."
Oh or he said, "Hang out with my
friends?"
And I was like "Ooohh so like when you
hear me sending voice messages to my two new mom friends or my gay
bestie?"
Again he goes "Ooohh huh? "
ROFL idiot
SIGYN
Yeah and it's like I used to be basically
nymphomaniac when I was 23 okay and Loki was 18. And back then he couldn't keep
up with me and he thought that I was too demanding because I wanted it like
five times a day. Literally five times a day. And now we're 25 and 30. I pretty
much get my needs met from reading, writing, or you know videos of gay men. And
part of it is again because I no longer need sex to validate me. And Loki is
upset that we only do it like a couple times a week. And he thinks that I have
a sexual dysfunction and that I should talk to my therapist about it. I really
don't. I just am no longer hypersexual and that shouldn't be a problem. Like I
should be allowed to be gray Ace and not have there be something wrong with me.
Unfortunately our couple’s counselor took his side so I fired her
I think you let stupid come in you
Sorry 😐
NI
ROFLMAO.......... Mines tried saying that
but I put him down so HARD it's drifted into past for the moment
SIGYN
But yeah it's like you're damned if you're
too needy and then you're damned if you're not needy enough because they want
you to like fit into this box of what they think a partner should be instead of
just allowing you to flourish as just your own human being but they like claim
that they want you to be happy but only like on their terms
NI
And yeah just a little bit
YUP basically...... And mine I think is
full bipolar
Literally he forgets his own options and
forms new ones sometimes
SIGYN
Yeah dude Loki says that he wasn't fully a
man when he was 18 and that he has more testosterone out. Bitch I have
testosterone. Everybody has testosterone. It I actually have more testosterone
than the average afab person my age
NI
We both have idiots 🤣
SIGYN
Yes we do but mine happens to be a good
co-parent and I don't really want to deal with a toddler on my own so I'm stuck
with him
NI
Same....... ROFLMAO
SIGYN
He is aesthetically a very attractive
person. I always get comments on how hot he is how good looking he is and how
good looking our baby is who looks mostly like him because he has most of the
dominant alleles
Now if you would just wear a filler gag and
stay tied to the chair...
NI
ROFL!!!!! Omfg yeah mine looks like my
husband just copied and pasted lmfao
SIGYN
Right, they always end up looking like the
dad
NI
Actually my half sister looks like our mom
but in her case she is a lot prettier than our mom was at her age but on the
other hand she's kind of starting to look like her now. But her babies also
look like her
SIGYN
I look like my dad which is actually a
blessing because yeah my dad has a great facial structure and my mom has like
kind of a pear face
And then I think Loki inherited his
father's facial structure,
So I wanted us to have a boy because it's
going to end up with a masc facial structure, and we did which is great, but he
looks exactly like Loki
Oh except for my eyes
NI
AHAHAHAHA yeah basically how mine went.
Except I still can't tell what she got of mine
Also my bad slowing down a sec sense I
finally got someone up enough to continue on those edits 🤣
SIGYN
That's because you're white
So Loki's eyes are the Ethiopian eye
structure and mine are Vietnamese, and also one of my eyes is slightly narrower
than the other whereas his are perfectly symmetrical. So it was very easy to
tell that Lucius got my eyes
NI
Yeeeaaaa that would be lol
/11:28 p.m.
SIGYN, 10:39 a.m.
Omfg
APPARENTLY THAT'S DORIAN'S ACTOR
from uhhh CAOS
HE'S A MAJOR FUCKING HOTTIE
/end 10:40 a.m.
SIGYN, 2:07 a.m., sends a video:
Hey hun hope you are feeling better *hugs* ❤❤❤❤
Omg is that...what!?
SIGYN, 1:39 p.m.
My mother-in-law sent a video of
...she told me it was gonna be the cats
making a journey to see each other?
Well, I moved past the sinus infection
stage and now I'm at the itchy throat and cough stage
Lucius doesn't understand why I won't play
with him
(6:17 p.m.) blechhhhh
whine whine complain complain
I hate being sick again
SIGYN, 1:05 a.m.
BEX, 10:54 a.m.
Hey hun hope you are feeling better *hugs* ❤❤❤❤
Wow that Bianca person sounds like a bitch. Ugh
SIGYN, 2:57 p.m.
I mean, we're not even friends, so I'm not sure why she thought it was necessary to PM Nate