SIGYN, 12:08 p.m.
Short answer is I panicked. I felt both
isolated and trapped (therapist flaked on me, it was a holiday so no one else
at the agency was available) and wanted to take myself away from the pain and
anxiety. It happens every so often, used to be every couple of weeks but now
it's been about a year. I'm still alive, which I guess is okay
I'm sorry. I know I said I wouldn't, or
something like that. I just flipped out.
BEX
*hugs extra tight* hun...you had me worried
sick! I'm just glad you're ok! I'm sorry I wasn't around, but please don't do
that again or anything that will hurt you. I love you! ❤❤❤
SIGYN
I'm so sorry, again. It wasn't because you
specifically weren't there; you're important to me & our stories are the
highlight of our day, but what happened was, Loki said that fucked up shit I
told you about. Then I scheduled an emergency appointment with my therapist.
She flaked. I took some sleeping pills and crashed. The next day I was supposed
to be at my dad's for Thanksgiving but Loki didn't want to take me because I
was "bitchy" (hung over from sleeping pills & anxious to get to
my dad's). My dad wasn't picking up the phone. I flipped out and cut myself.
Loki basically said I was just misbehaving because I didn't get my way
BEX
What a horrible person he is! Honestly hun,
you got to get away from him.
SIGYN
My sister says I've got to find a caretaker
for Lucius and me so we can kick him out
(2:21 p.m.) I
don't know where to find one though and I'm freaking out
I don't like thinking about sex outside of,
like, our discussions and
Anyway he comes into my room and runs his
hands over my body (NO) and when I say no he asks why and then he mentions
things that are sex adjacent and I panic and then he uses THAT as an excuse to
say cuddling is a waste of time and we shouldn't be together
(2:45 p.m.) I
don't care if we're together but I want my baby with me and I don't know where
to find a caretaker
Sorry. I'm just freaking out. Anyway, I
finally got a lock on my door
When you have a moment though, it's your
turn on everything I'm pretty sure
(4:42 p.m.)
Rebecca missed your video chat. – 4:42
p.m.
SIGYN, 5:51 p.m.
(6:57 p.m.) other
than me having an episode, I hope you had a wonderful thanksgiving ❤️ I was able to make it to my dad's,
not able to help with preparation but we did get to eat, and we found out
Lucius likes stuffing. I know you've probably got some eventful things going
on, so just wanted to let you know I'm going to try to get round to editing and
uploading our fic :D I'll send you things that make me think of you as per
usual but don't be alarmed about not responding or anything like that, esp if
you're having fun with the family 💖 Thank you for being there for me all these years & I love you
very much! Cheers!
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