July 4, 2022 | Convo from Bex, at Faustus’s account

 BEX, 10:23 a.m.

Happy 4th of july!

❤Faustus Blackwood

June 29, 2022 | Conversation with Camille from the CXGF groups

 CAMILLE, 3:01 p.m.

Hey Sigyn

 

SIGYN

Hey, what's up?

 

CAMILLE

How have you been? Are the meds helping?

I didn’t know you were having a rough time. Hope things are looking up.

 

SIGYN

Yes, actually! I forgot to take them for a while and then something happened that cleared up the bulk of my depression (which is usually situational) and then I got back into a routine and now I have tons of energy

 

CAMILLE

I’m so glad you’re noticing a difference💗 I know depression to be a bitch. How awful. Glad you’re doing better :)

I had actually been thinking about you a couple of times and wanted to shoot you a msg but forgot your specific name change on fb so I wasn’t sure what to do 😂😂

 

SIGYN

Oh XD yeah I went back to using my real name on Facebook

 

CAMILLE

It’s so cool, your parents did a good job haha

 

SIGYN

Actually, it's not my given name

But thank you XD

 

CAMILLE

Oh, apologies!

Assumptions are too easily made 🙈

Hey the reason I wanted to msg you originally was to check in on you because I hadn’t seen you pop up on my feed for a lil while & also to send you sort of a bit of a thank you, if you will.

I believe you had posted something along the lines of thinking/knowing you have ASPD and it had gotten the ball rolling of me thinking about whether I should have “myself” checked out again. It’s a bit of a story, but I’ve spiralled again myself recently, which has led to mental health services to actually take it seriously at some point, and I’m pretty sure that without your posts, I wouldn’t have been at the level of self-awareness I’m at now. So, thank you.

(They are not looking at me as BPD anymore but treating me as NPD/AsPD lmao it’s wild)

 

SIGYN

so I had some drama with a friend and just left this account for a little while. I was still on some of my roleplay accounts and I created a new hybrid account for both real life and roleplay stuff. I wasn't sure if I should add you on it but I added some people I knew in meatspace.

I have antisocial-like-behaviors and tendencies, but I do not fully qualify for ASPD. I am glad to have helped though! And sorry for your mental health problems :(

I don't know you well, but I haven't really seen you exhibit anything characteristic of NPD/ASPD? Granted, I'm not a professional, but abnormal psychology is one of my special interests

/END 3:27 PM

January 7 – March 26, 2022 | Convo with Kraven Riverson, from Blaine's account

 Jan 07, 11:31:01am

Kraven Riverson

Hi

 

Mar 24, 11:42:14pm

Blaine Menchineel

Hi, how are you?

 

Mar 25, 10:42:39pm

KRAVEN

Ok you

 

Mar 26, 2:37:21am

BLAINE

I'm doing well enough, い

I suppose

 

KRAVEN, 10:09 p.m.

Aw

January 14, 2022 | Convo with Ni from Trent’s account

 10:18 p.m.

NI

OH JEEZ....... My husband just for MOODY AS FUCK AT ME

 

SIGYN

WHY

 

NI

Literally unprovoked other than he tried to grab my nose then my hand then tried to flop his arm on my and I'm legit laying here DYING

Like cool talk, touch places that don't make it so I can't even look at TikTok and places that don't hurt

But noooo and he immediately three a tantrum like I'd told him to go away and die 🤦‍♀️

Which I didn't I said stop like twice

Didn't even snap either

Who the fucks on their period? Almost forgot just now 😂

 

SIGYN

Mine constantly pesters me for attention when I'm writing or watching TV and then gets mad when I ask him to stop

"you're being so rude to me"

 

NI

Oh yeah mine to. He just did.

 

SIGYN

good talk, you're blocking the television / distracting me from my story

 

NI

Like I'm about to be pissed

 

SIGYN

"I wish I didn't have to beg for attention" then don’t

 

NI

RIGHT!!!??? Bitches acting like we NEVER do anything with them and we should just CONSTANTLY be all over them

 

SIGYN

He thinks we don't have enough sex, but like, I've told him multiple times to give me the space to let me come to him, but he DOESNT and then whines about me "losing interest" or "I feel like this relationship isn't working anymore because you're not attracted to me"

but yet he gets wigged out whenever I'm in masc phase

 

NI

The most annoying part is mine’s a trucker so he like uses it as a weapon

"I've been gone all week how dare you have OTHER plans!!!"

 

SIGYN

BRO I WAS ALL OVER HIM AND NEVER DID ANYTHING WITHOUT HIM. EIGHT YEARS AGO, WHEN WE MET. THAT WENT BADLY.

 

NI

....... Oh my god let me tell you. I totally understand

 

SIGYN

I had a Bella Swan reaction a few times when his family herded him away from me. Was actually institutionalized for intensive grief rehab once.

 

NI

Oi..... See and I just need space. Naturally

So like he should know this by now comes home. Knows I'm on my period and hurting. Knows I'm funked out

Proceeds to start drama over NOTHING with me

Oh god I'm sorry dude :/

 

SIGYN

and now he's like "oh you're losing interest" because I'm actually a whole person with whole interests. I quit RP to spend more time with him and then got abandoned and then he wanted to get back together but be poly and then didn't want to be together because of my chronic (stress induced) illness

So I had to learn to be my own person and now that I'm a fully separate human being he's whiny

Yeah sometimes men get their meriods

at the same time

Just to be annoying

thanks, it sucked but I learned a couple things

 

NI

And you should not be quitting hobbies for anyone...... But oi I HATE when they do that kinda shit. Mines constantly OVET ANALYSING "you've been so weird lately yada yada*

 

SIGYN

RIGHT??

No like he told me to get back into doing the things that made me happy, but now when I'm doing them I hyper focus and I don't want to be interrupted. And when I started going back to the gym he was like oh you get to go out and go places and I have to stay and take care of the baby but you get to go out every day

Bitch, to the gym!

Oh yeah I hate that the oh you've been so weird lately, you're so distant, our relationship isn't like it used to be. BUDDY. our relationship used to be toxic as fuck because I literally couldn't tolerate being separated from you for more than 8 hours.

And like he was unhappy when I was cleaning to him all the time but now he says that he misses that because it was like I was actually interested in him back then

Like I'm sorry that I'm a recovered sex addict and that my symptoms have gone into remission? I'm sorry that now I have bodily autonomy and I don't require sex as validation? And, no, I don't want to do it that often anymore. I actually kind of lost interest in the act itself when I realized I don't need it for validation anymore. But you know who does like to have it all the time? One of my alters. My male alter.

 

NI

Yo I FEEL..... Lol

But yuck! Man that sounds soooo familiar except MY husband is sitting around missing the new relationship days. Like he can't get over the fucking fact we've been together ages and have a kid and life now so of course I'm not just following him everywhere acting happy 24/7 around him. That wasn't the REAL me

He got to slowly know the real me now he gets all of it and wants to BITCH

 

SIGYN

Blech awful

 

NI

Yeah it's extremely frustrating

To be told how "I'm always miserable" apparently

 

SIGYN

It's like they want to be fawned over but they don't want to be like have expectations on them and they don't want to be fawned over too much

What the fuck you're not always miserable you're a delight

 

NI

AHAHAHAHA yeah I'm aware. He doesn't fucking get it though. Of I'm not wanting to run off into the blue to walk around Walmart or fuck in the semi 24/7 I must be a miserable bag of shit

Last week he basically told me to get a hobby

 

SIGYN

But you have a hobby. This is your hobby.

 

NI

Until it immediately backfired and slapped him in the FACE

I was like name your hobbies

Wait no I said

"If you were home all week. What would you do?"

He goes. "Uuhh watch TV?"

So I pointed to my phone

"Work on my car?"

So I pointed to the Xbox

And he was just like "Oh...."

Oh or he said, "Hang out with my friends?"

And I was like "Ooohh so like when you hear me sending voice messages to my two new mom friends or my gay bestie?"

Again he goes "Ooohh huh? "

ROFL idiot

 

SIGYN

Yeah and it's like I used to be basically nymphomaniac when I was 23 okay and Loki was 18. And back then he couldn't keep up with me and he thought that I was too demanding because I wanted it like five times a day. Literally five times a day. And now we're 25 and 30. I pretty much get my needs met from reading, writing, or you know videos of gay men. And part of it is again because I no longer need sex to validate me. And Loki is upset that we only do it like a couple times a week. And he thinks that I have a sexual dysfunction and that I should talk to my therapist about it. I really don't. I just am no longer hypersexual and that shouldn't be a problem. Like I should be allowed to be gray Ace and not have there be something wrong with me. Unfortunately our couple’s counselor took his side so I fired her

I think you let stupid come in you

Sorry 😐

 

NI

ROFLMAO.......... Mines tried saying that but I put him down so HARD it's drifted into past for the moment

 

SIGYN

But yeah it's like you're damned if you're too needy and then you're damned if you're not needy enough because they want you to like fit into this box of what they think a partner should be instead of just allowing you to flourish as just your own human being but they like claim that they want you to be happy but only like on their terms

 

NI

And yeah just a little bit

YUP basically...... And mine I think is full bipolar

Literally he forgets his own options and forms new ones sometimes

 

SIGYN

Yeah dude Loki says that he wasn't fully a man when he was 18 and that he has more testosterone out. Bitch I have testosterone. Everybody has testosterone. It I actually have more testosterone than the average afab person my age

 

NI

We both have idiots 🤣

 

SIGYN

Yes we do but mine happens to be a good co-parent and I don't really want to deal with a toddler on my own so I'm stuck with him

 

NI

Same....... ROFLMAO

 

SIGYN

He is aesthetically a very attractive person. I always get comments on how hot he is how good looking he is and how good looking our baby is who looks mostly like him because he has most of the dominant alleles

Now if you would just wear a filler gag and stay tied to the chair...

 

NI

ROFL!!!!! Omfg yeah mine looks like my husband just copied and pasted lmfao

 

SIGYN

Right, they always end up looking like the dad

 

NI

Actually my half sister looks like our mom but in her case she is a lot prettier than our mom was at her age but on the other hand she's kind of starting to look like her now. But her babies also look like her

 

SIGYN

I look like my dad which is actually a blessing because yeah my dad has a great facial structure and my mom has like kind of a pear face

And then I think Loki inherited his father's facial structure,

So I wanted us to have a boy because it's going to end up with a masc facial structure, and we did which is great, but he looks exactly like Loki

Oh except for my eyes

 

NI

AHAHAHAHA yeah basically how mine went. Except I still can't tell what she got of mine

Also my bad slowing down a sec sense I finally got someone up enough to continue on those edits 🤣

 

SIGYN

That's because you're white

So Loki's eyes are the Ethiopian eye structure and mine are Vietnamese, and also one of my eyes is slightly narrower than the other whereas his are perfectly symmetrical. So it was very easy to tell that Lucius got my eyes

 

NI

Yeeeaaaa that would be lol

/11:28 p.m.

January 3, 2022 | Convo at Bex, from Faustus's account

 SIGYN, 10:39 a.m.

Omfg

APPARENTLY THAT'S DORIAN'S ACTOR

from uhhh CAOS

HE'S A MAJOR FUCKING HOTTIE

/end 10:40 a.m.

December 30, 2021 | Convo with Bex

 SIGYN, 2:07 a.m., sends a video: 

 BEX, 10:53 a.m.

Hey hun hope you are feeling better *hugs* ❤❤❤❤

Omg is that...what!?

 

SIGYN, 1:39 p.m.

My mother-in-law sent a video of

...she told me it was gonna be the cats making a journey to see each other?

Well, I moved past the sinus infection stage and now I'm at the itchy throat and cough stage

Lucius doesn't understand why I won't play with him

(6:17 p.m.) blechhhhh

whine whine complain complain

I hate being sick again

December 30, 2021 | Convo with Bex, from Trent’s account

 SIGYN, 1:05 a.m.

Not to be bitchy, but was there a point to that? XD

 

BEX, 10:54 a.m.

Hey hun hope you are feeling better *hugs* ❤❤❤❤

Wow that Bianca person sounds like a bitch. Ugh

 

SIGYN, 2:57 p.m.

I mean, we're not even friends, so I'm not sure why she thought it was necessary to PM Nate

December 29, 2021 | Convo at Bex, from Trent’s account

SIGYN, 2:52 p.m.

helpppp I have a sinus infection and Benadryl isn't helping

December 27, 2021 | Convo with Bex, from Trent’s account

SIGYN, 2:41 p.m.

Hi so I just had a confusing conversation with Michael and I'm not sure if I said something inaccurate.

BEX, 3:47 p.m.

No you said the right thing but I didn't say why because of what was going on with Steve too.

 

SIGYN

Ahh, okay.

Well, he's said some other problematic shit after that but I'ma let him sort out his own feelings because I feel like he's trying to guilt trip you through me and I don't like that.

*sits with you and shares mince pie* It's just not great all around lately. You're going through stuff, I'm having moods, it's been rough with other people including new friends

 

BEX, 4:04 p.m.

Wait...what did he say?

Please?

I'm cooking dinner so replies slow

 

SIGYN

I'll tell you, but you need to understand that you are not responsible for how he is feeling and you cannot take back your decision just because of it.

 

PENRYN

…regrets. Reading back on this, it’s likely Michael was genuinely confused because Bex was talking about him but not to him.

 

SIGYN

BEX, 5:02 p.m.

I understand. I just wanted to know so I am...not validated...but...I don't even know what I wanna say ya know? Lol

Yea I can see what you mean

 

SIGYN, 11:18 p.m.

Yeah, I mean, I know you want to be aware of things. I just don't want you to feel like you have to change your mind just because he's taking it badly

December 26, 2021 | Convo with Bex, from Faustus’s account

 SIGYN, 1:50 p.m.

I'm over here now :P

 

BEX, 2:52 pm

Hey sorry hun. Me and steve just got into a huge fight and I'm a little pissy right now. But still here.. I guess just not really myself.

 

SIGYN

Oh no! What happened?

BEX

(Kelly's number censored during transcription; it was shown in the original pic)

To the lady who watches Rhett

And I ONLY found it because he had a seizure and used his phone to call emergency. Unlocked his phone...no homescreen...just this.

He said nothing happened...so we will see when I go to confront her tomorrow morning

 

SIGYN

WTF.

 

BEX

Yea...and I know he erases his messages for storage on his phone and he always does that but that was the ONLY messages from her.

Everything else is gone.

 

SIGYN

That is fucked UP

And he has the audacity to be snippy about Mike?

 

BEX

Right! Thank you!

Who by the way I am getting so tired of dealing with atm

 

SIGYN

Yeah no he's annoying to me too

 

BEX

So hiding in the bath trying to calm down. I had to call a friend to cone get Rhett cause Steve refused to go to the hospital cause he started to have a sizure...and since my phone was still on emergency I had to use his to call that friend and those messages popped up. So I took a picture, then called my friend and she came over and sat with Rhett I her car while I yelled at Steve once he was better

I mean....yelled...and I never yell

 

SIGYN

I am so sorry. He's being a jerk!

 

(3:00 p.m.)

 

BEX

I mean it wasn't like I went looking for them. I unlocked his phone and boom! There they were. No home screen nothing..just that!

 

SIGYN

He should have at least been transparent with you that he was talking like that with someone & not let you find out like that.

 

BEX

That's literally what I raged at him about.

 

SIGYN

I hear you!

 

BEX

I'm mad cause you didn't tell me and I found out this way...I'm also mad cause when we jokingly talked about it together when all three of us were tipsy that night at our bonfire a few months ago I said NO

 

SIGYN

:O

HE SHOULD RESPECT THAT WTF

 

BEX

He says he doesn't know why he does things like that.

And he's been diagnosed before with this personality thing where he does something and then not k it why...so I don't know but I'm not buying it

I even thru it into his face that I talked to him about everything when it came to mike....so....

I mean I feel kinda bad cause before our friend came over to take Rhett outside I exploded at him...like hella exploded and Rhett got upset and told us both to stop...

Rhett shouldn't have to hear that

I remember my parents fighting and it still messes with me

 

SIGYN

I mean, I'm sorry he had to witness that too, but you've every right to be mad

 

BEX

This isn't the first time he's done this either

I caught him...or I should say fate showed me again...when we first moved up here together.

He asked me to check his emails for a link that he needed and when I went into his phone to find it..BAM! Emails to at least two other women saying things like "this is my phone number." Or "this is my work schedule." Granted reading them and the replies nothing ever came from them...but that's not the point

I mean...having to hold in my anger while the eats were here was so hard...cause he was having a bad one so I called...but he being a stubborn ass refused to go.

 

SIGYN

YEAH! Loki was fully aware of me flirting with Valentino as Sebastian

 

BEX

I told him before...NEVER hide things from me cause Fate will ALWAYS show me and I will find out..

 

SIGYN

(speaking of which, I did block him as Sebastian and Trent but now he's interested in Faustus -_-)

 

BEX

I wasn't even looking Sigyn! I wasn't! That's what's so bad! Fate just literally...oh here ya go! Ughhhh!

I'm so mad right now still I can't think straight. I don't ever want to see her again and I don't want steve to talk to her again...but that seems petty...and Rhett loves daycare....I'm so confused

 

SIGYN

It's not petty

I'd say let Rhett keep going to daycare but keep ur interaction with her to a bare minimum

 

BEX

I told him this was the absolute last and final time and I mean it. One more slip...just one...and I'm done. And that kinda scares me cause I can't raise Rhett on my own...and now I'm thinking in that vein and I might have a panic attack later cause omg I was so mad I was shaking...I wasn't even crying and that's when you run with me. Hehehe *trying to be a little funny* but this sucks

 

SIGYN

Other than talking strictly about Rhett, they can fuck themselves and the whores they rode in on

 

BEX

I shoved it all down...the rage and the tears and I know that's not good but he doesn't get to see me cry...not over this....ughhhh...why? Why can't he talk to me...he says he needs confidence to say what he wants or thinks and he asked me to help him after we got done yelling..well...I yelled, he actually cried....

I'm rambling....

 

SIGYN

You're within your rights

Keep rambling, I'm listening!

And maybe he SHOULD see you cry so he'll know how bad it affected you. It's not a sign of weakness, it's like... look how bad you hurt me, from you

From him, I don't really know what to think. Flirting can be an addictive habit, but there's no reason to do it behind your partner's back

Either you let them know you're doing it & it's okay to continue, or it's not okay & you quit it

 

BEX

He came in to talk to me while I'm in the tub. Bleh

 

SIGYN

Bleh

did you tell him to leave?

 

BEX

I did. He did. And I'm talking to Kelly now so I feel a little better.

 

SIGYN

That's good. Is she clarifying things?

 

(4:00 p.m.)

 

BEX

Yea...kinda

 

SIGYN

*hugs*

 

BEX

*hugs*

My bath waters cold but I don't wanna get out...sad is that? Lol

 

SIGYN

Drain it partially and add more hot water

that's what I do

 

BEX

Yea but then he'll know I'm hiding 🤣

 

SIGYN

You are not hiding, you are taking space :p

 

BEX

I might go play a video game and kill things. Hehehe

 

SIGYN

That sounds like good stress relief. I'm getting a massage

 

BEX

Nice! I need one. Hehehe

 

SIGYN

Yeah :3 getting all the bad vibes from before just pressed right out

Faustus is going to be a lot more careful; he doesn't *have* as strong of a personality or preferences as Sebastian, so he's going to "let" Valentino mold him into however he wants (except when I need to take a break & then he's just going to be offline) until Freya shows up on the scene like "um, what's going on here? Faustus? This isn't you?"

(6:44 p.m.) Anyway, I hope everything gets sorted on your end, for the better.

/end

December 26, 2021 | Convo at Bex, from Trent’s account

 SIGYN, 1:26 p.m.

Hi :D I have a spare you can use for Freya cause I'm never gonna use it again. It's [since been converted to a Rebecca Bunch account].

December 17, 2021 | Convo with Bex

 BEX, December 16^th, 12:00 p.m.

Are you alive?!

 

SIGYN, today at 9:20 a.m.

HI sorry! I'm finally being discharged & going home

 

BEX

Discharged? Are you alright? I'm SO HAPPY to see your messages!! ♥ ♥ ♥

 

SIGYN

Yeah emergency psychiatric. They don't let you keep your phone

Sorry to make you worry, I just had a crappy state of mind

 

BEX

*glomps you and hugs you tight* I am soooooo happy you are alright! *giggles softly* I was worried! But you're ok, so I'm good

 

SIGYN

*huggggg*

Not being on FB and especially not chatting with you is some kind of fresh hell ngl

 

BEX

I can imagine.

I missed you too ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

 

SIGYN

💞❤️💖

So now that I'm FREEDOM!!!!

 

BEX

Now I can relax. hehehehe. I saw your stats and kinda freaked a little. :P

 

SIGYN

before we get to all the new spam I'll be spamming you with, and now that everything's all good, will you be able to look over the old spam today? XD

Sorry again DX

 

BEX

did I not? *talks to self* I think I scouraed your messenger looking at least for a number. lol lol but yea, I will actually go through and give a looksee again, slower this time. 😂🥰😘

 

SIGYN

XD

My phone number is [REDACTED]

 

BEX

well that was easy! *giggles*

mine is [REDACTED]

 

SIGYN

But chances are, if you can't reach me on messenger, I'm unreachable. I rarely answer my phone because scam calls

 

BEX

gotcha! I don't answer mine if I don't know the number either

 

SIGYN

I'll program you in

 

BEX

me too for you!

Ugh! One sec, damn dog is in the litter box! EWWWWW

 

SIGYN

dammit Mia XD

when you get a sec pls lmk what you think of the vignettes I sent you XD they'll go in main at some point but I wanted your thoughts

(9:54 a.m.)

 

*cackles*

(10:34 a.m.)

These were alongside that mural

I love boats

 

BEX

ooohhh! Pretty! ♥

I used to go out on boats all the time when I was younger.

 

SIGYN, 11:06 a.m.

Oh LUCKY

I think I went on a couple tour boats in Europe a decade ago.

(11:18 a.m.) I'ma work on converting one of my accounts to a Trent account 😈

(12:10 p.m.) Almost finished!

 

BEX

I've just finished lunch and had to chase.mia in the freezing rain cause she somehow got out of the fence! Damn dog!

She's lucky I love her!

December 13, 2021 | Convo at Bex

 SIGYN, 9:55 a.m.

almost forgot to send you those from VC earlier

(10:03 a.m.) awww Maze likes pop tarts

December 11, 2021 | Convo at Bex

 SIGYN, 12:19 p.m.

GOOD MORNFTERNOON HII SORRY I OVERSLEPT &MISSED IT

(2:07 p.m.)

so that's the shirt Sebastian wanted to get that time at the mall (and personally I think we overpaid, but eh)

How's your tummy BTW?

(2:25 p.m.)

 

Rebecca missed your video chat. – 2:25 p.m.

 

(4:28 p.m.) Audio message:

 (5:30 p.m.)

 

(9:02 p.m.) I'm rewatching The Lincoln Lawyer and it looks like Matthew McConaughey actually plays the lawyer, and Ryan Phillippe plays the client.

Lol oops

(9:23 p.m.) There's a girl who looks vaguely like Rebecca but on coke

December 4, 2021 | Conversation with Elle

 ELLE, 3:39 p.m.

Hi :) I got your card thanks for your good wishes 😊

 

SIGYN

♥

Are you doing okay?

 

ELLE

yeah I'm doing better I'm coughing a bit and I'm tired a sneezing a bit but other then that i'm ok

 

SIGYN

I'm glad you're doing better; hope you fully recover soon!

 

ELLE

thanks :)

/end 3:41 p.m.

November 28, 2021 | convo with Bex

Snipped audio here:

 SIGYN, 10:40 a.m.

Heads up: I'll be spamming the TV Time chat with out of context Lucifer commentary. Hope you're holding up ok 🤗

(12:19 p.m.) [snip baby video]

(4:39 p.m.) bruh

That baby is ROWDY this evening

 

You missed a video chat with Rebecca. – 4:41 p.m.

 

BEX, 4:46 p.m.

SIGYN, 5:46 p.m.

[snip voice messages]

(6:22 p.m.) I love her

 

BEX

That's cute. 🥰

 

SIGYN

She has such wholesome energy in those scenes

That's actually primarily what reminded me of Freya and then I thought she looks a bit like her too

she has the sweetest energy in those scenes. I'll splice them all together for you but it'll take a few days lol

 

E/N: Snipping all the BHE flashback videos, except ones with additional commentary, from this chat because I’ve already made a comprehensive one.

 

BEX, 6:51 p.m.

Sorry hun. Not having Goodluck with Rhett. So replies slow for a bit. Lol

 

SIGYN

it's fine! I'm just sending clips of what I'm watching. I know bebby is beastling

(7:20 p.m.) I feel bad that I think the little boy in the show is kinda ugly XD

(7:50 p.m.)

(8:00 p.m.) just Eve Hewson being precious and the cuteness of her character's friendship with Rob

(8:13 p.m.) I love those dresses and their castle

November 27, 2021 | convo at Bex

 SIGYN, 12:06 p.m.

mornfternoon! :D how's the housecleaning going? I woke up with a cleaning bug too. And then had to sweep up some dead bugs from under the sink

(6:13 p.m.)

i named one of the collections after you >:D 

November 26, 2021 | convo with Bex

 SIGYN, 12:08 p.m.

Short answer is I panicked. I felt both isolated and trapped (therapist flaked on me, it was a holiday so no one else at the agency was available) and wanted to take myself away from the pain and anxiety. It happens every so often, used to be every couple of weeks but now it's been about a year. I'm still alive, which I guess is okay

I'm sorry. I know I said I wouldn't, or something like that. I just flipped out.

 

BEX

*hugs extra tight* hun...you had me worried sick! I'm just glad you're ok! I'm sorry I wasn't around, but please don't do that again or anything that will hurt you. I love you! ❤❤❤

 

SIGYN

I'm so sorry, again. It wasn't because you specifically weren't there; you're important to me & our stories are the highlight of our day, but what happened was, Loki said that fucked up shit I told you about. Then I scheduled an emergency appointment with my therapist. She flaked. I took some sleeping pills and crashed. The next day I was supposed to be at my dad's for Thanksgiving but Loki didn't want to take me because I was "bitchy" (hung over from sleeping pills & anxious to get to my dad's). My dad wasn't picking up the phone. I flipped out and cut myself. Loki basically said I was just misbehaving because I didn't get my way

 

BEX

What a horrible person he is! Honestly hun, you got to get away from him.

 

SIGYN

My sister says I've got to find a caretaker for Lucius and me so we can kick him out

(2:21 p.m.) I don't know where to find one though and I'm freaking out

I don't like thinking about sex outside of, like, our discussions and

Anyway he comes into my room and runs his hands over my body (NO) and when I say no he asks why and then he mentions things that are sex adjacent and I panic and then he uses THAT as an excuse to say cuddling is a waste of time and we shouldn't be together

(2:45 p.m.) I don't care if we're together but I want my baby with me and I don't know where to find a caretaker

Sorry. I'm just freaking out. Anyway, I finally got a lock on my door

When you have a moment though, it's your turn on everything I'm pretty sure

(4:42 p.m.)

Rebecca missed your video chat. – 4:42 p.m.

 

SIGYN, 5:51 p.m.

I had a candied apple and I ate the candy part and gave him the apple part. He likes it

(6:57 p.m.) other than me having an episode, I hope you had a wonderful thanksgiving ❤️ I was able to make it to my dad's, not able to help with preparation but we did get to eat, and we found out Lucius likes stuffing. I know you've probably got some eventful things going on, so just wanted to let you know I'm going to try to get round to editing and uploading our fic :D I'll send you things that make me think of you as per usual but don't be alarmed about not responding or anything like that, esp if you're having fun with the family 💖 Thank you for being there for me all these years & I love you very much! Cheers!