The Penultimate Culmination of Modeling Food for Thought

Followup from "Modeling Food for Thought part 20".

Hello all, I realise it's been a while. Some rubbish occurred, part of which was my hard drive going kaput. So I'm back in California, using a much older laptop, and I haven't got all the information I'd have liked to. I'll be going back through my messaging history with Makayla later, so this'll be out of order, but I can bring to you today the culmination! Here we go.

I had messaged Makayla and asked her to put me back in contact with Blossom to sort of see where my modeling career could go with their agency. Apparently Madeline had caused a car accident and Blossom would be unable to model ever again, so now they were requiring a deposit from all their new girls. Minutes later, Blossom texted me.

JANUARY 27, 2016

BLOSSOM, 11.57 AM
Is this Miss Sigyn?

ME
Mrs Wisch, but yes :3 Is this Blossom?

BLOSSOM
Yes it is

ME
Alright, you're in my contacts. Firstly, I heard about the accident and I'm so sorry that happened. Secondly, I'm also sorry for not being able to contact you in November. I was in the hospital for a while and then the caretaker they stuck me with did dishonest things with my belongings. I just managed to get back to California and get a new cell phone.

BLOSSOM
Oh, well I send my apologies for the caretaker's behavior. Don't worry about my accident. Madeline caused it so it is whatever

ME
What did she do?

BLOSSOM
Long story.

ME
Ah, I see.
I've got time if you want to tell me. If not, I was wondering if I might be able to still model?

BLOSSOM
Well if you model then we need to build some files
$250 flat and ill put you in madeline shoot

ME
Can you explain, please?

BLOSSOM
new portfolio, video slide, and do some doctoring and then with all that I had a shoot for madeline in February that still needs to be filled.

ME
When is the shoot?

BLOSSOM
Feb 25

ME
Alright. I haven't done any modeling since my heart and lungs failed, but I did have to take out my dreads.

BLOSSOM
Whats your hair look like now?

ME
{sent a picture of me at the Fresno Greyhound station with my hair loose}
(15 minutes later) In case you didn't get the picture I sent, shoulder length, curlyish

BLOSSOM
I got no photo, and ok thats fine

ME
Alrighty :3
I think it looks a lot better like this, honestly, than the yarn braids, but you know, my husband liked the braids and they were low maintenance for traveling.

BLOSSOM
So send in your paperwork and I will let you know where payment goes and i will send a copy of information for the shoot
Yeah thats good, What ever happened to him?

ME
Alright. Can you send me a list of the paperwork I need to send?

BLOSSOM
Yes,

ME
Oh, Loki's in college. His family strong-armed him into moving in with his uncle, who wouldn't take me in. Anyway, I'm in San Jose for the next few months.

BLOSSOM
Photos (Updated), Tax information, hight weight hair color eye color. Basically re send us your portfolio and we do a mass update
Oh I'm sorry

ME
Alrighty. What do you mean by tax information? I don't file taxes since I don't have an income.

BLOSSOM
Oh ok never mind then

ME
Photos, height, weight, hair, eyes. I'll send clothing sizes as well. Unfortunately, my hard drive crashed just before I left Portland, so I don't have my old portfolio.

BLOSSOM
Oh ok I'm sorry :(

ME
It's alright. I don't mind resubmitting the information.

BLOSSOM
Ok great

So then I was walking into a job interview and couldn't respond right away. She never did send me anything, but at 3 PM, after my interview, I asked where I should send the information and she didn't respond. Makayla, however, did send me something through Facebook Messenger, told me where to send the information, and I can get you the context once I'm done with the information on my phone. Anyway, I didn't hear from Blossom again until February 1st. Let's take a look.

BLOSSOM, 12:57 PM
HI

ME, 2 PM
Hello

(and that was the end of that)

January 14, 2016 - texts with Loki

 2:57 p.m.

LOKI

Sigyn you are my one and only. You're not weak, you're not stupid or ugly. You're beautiful, smart and strong. I saw it in you the whole time we were together this weekend. And I still see it in you now.

I love you too. And now I know why I chose you. Because we were meant to be together. I can feel it now.

Hugs you close. Sigyn everything is fitting into place as I wanted it to. I can finally remember all the days I spent wishing for someone like you.

SIGYN

You wished for me?

LOKI

Yes. Al those days before I forgot.

The moment I first learned who I wanted to be.

I was writing and saying your name before I ever even realized it.

Psyren is Sigyn. is you.

I drew you, I thought up your promiscuous personality, and all the power she as in you held.

The cunning strength and ruthless passion, the hatred, the devotion. It's all I wanted in a woman

You are Psyren, Sigyn. Don't you get it! I was saying your true name before I ever knew it! Before I ever knew you!

Sigyn. I know you don't see it yet. But I do. I saw it this weekend when you were with me. You and I are meant to be together.

I feel like I've been walking around with my eyes closed. And now I truly can feel it.

ME

I'm just so relieved and so glad that you finally see what I've seen, and that even though I doubted it a few times during the rocky parts of our relationship, I was right. My place is in your world, with you.

LOKI

It is. And I know the road ahead will be hard for us both, but you and I will both survive together. Because we are both stronger together my love.

January 6, 2016 - Texts with Eli

 8:21 p.m.

ELI

I met her once and found out Jim had never told her about me.

ME

Huh.

I met her once and she was nice enough to me. But I'm not the greatest at seeing past that when judging character.

Was she rude when you met her or...?

ELI

Oh yeah. Looking down at me, very rudely 'who exactly are YOU?'

She was putting on a show.

ME

WOW OKAY.

"I'm the JUGGERNAUT, BITCH!"

(later)

9:25 p.m.

ELI

He makes a lot of money.

ME

Yeah, but from what Loki's told me, after bills are paid he doesn't have much to spare.

ELI

BECAUSE HE SPENDS IT ON MEGAN

ME

*facepalm*

Sigh. Poor Loki, growing up with all that. Sympathy to you, too, obviously, but you've got the better head on your shoulders.

ELI

I feel bad for him thinking that's normal.

ME

He knows it isn't. He disagrees with how his father treats women. But he lapses into it with enough distance between us and Jim whispering in his ear. I want to give him the space he needs but I also don't want to lose him completely to demonic influence.

Normally, we work out our issues in person. It rarely takes more than a day or two.

ELI

At least he knows it's not normal. I've been scared that's the case.

ME

No, thankfully he knows Jim is fucked up.

But sadly, I'm afraid he may be leaning towards "Jim has a point"

ELI

FUCK

ME

Basically, I think he feels in his heart that he wants to be with me, but he's afraid that I'll be too demanding and push him to where he's so stressed out he can't see any alternative to acting like Jim.

ELI

Loki U r better than this

ME

U tell him I already tried.

ELI

He won't talk to me

Jan 5, 2016 - Texts with Eli

7:42 p.m.

 ELI

Um... I'd go to Cali. You'd have a place to live. Everything else will fall into place.

ME

Eli, sweetie, I had a place to live for... let's see... six years and didn't find work. Then went into Job Corps, had a seasonal position after, not long enough to put on my resume, and didn't find work afterwards for the 9 months before Loki and I left.

It's part of why I left. I couldn't get us a place to live with no job and no income.

The work is baaaad out there, but I'll just have to step it up a notch.

ELI

Fuck. I didn't know that.

ME

True. Well, I can suck it up and try retail support again.

Hoard as much money as I can, then buy an apartment in Sac and surprise Loki wit hit so he's got a place to retreat to and still be near college. Might move in there m'self if things go well. But I don't know how that'll work with him not speaking to me XD Currently, he's living with Aaron and Jim is paying a good portion of his rent.

Clearly you can see why I want to get him an apartment so bad XD He wants a place he can solidly afford on his own, which is good, but you know, I'd never throw him out or expect anything in return for staying in our own place.

ELI

I don't know what to tell you

Yeah. I get that

ME

People here are saying it'll come, everything works out for the greater good, etc. I hope so! It's just, my plans have a habit of noping.

ELI

I AM SO PISSED AT JIM.

Fuck him.

I'm not a hateful person, but seriously. Fuck. Him.

ME

Sure, but I'd rather not tell Loki about it. And I'll need copious amounts of Purell and a steel wool scrub for after.

ELI

No, the other fuck him.