SIGYN, 2:07 a.m., sends a video:
Hey hun hope you are feeling better *hugs* ❤❤❤❤
Omg is that...what!?
SIGYN, 1:39 p.m.
My mother-in-law sent a video of
...she told me it was gonna be the cats
making a journey to see each other?
Well, I moved past the sinus infection
stage and now I'm at the itchy throat and cough stage
Lucius doesn't understand why I won't play
with him
(6:17 p.m.) blechhhhh
whine whine complain complain
I hate being sick again
SIGYN, 1:05 a.m.
BEX, 10:54 a.m.
Hey hun hope you are feeling better *hugs* ❤❤❤❤
Wow that Bianca person sounds like a bitch. Ugh
SIGYN, 2:57 p.m.
I mean, we're not even friends, so I'm not sure why she thought it was necessary to PM Nate
SIGYN, 2:52 p.m.
helpppp I have a sinus infection and
Benadryl isn't helping
SIGYN, 2:41 p.m.
Hi so I just had a confusing conversation with Michael and I'm not sure if I said something inaccurate.
BEX, 3:47 p.m.
No you said the right thing but I didn't
say why because of what was going on with Steve too.
SIGYN
Ahh, okay.
Well, he's said some other problematic shit
after that but I'ma let him sort out his own feelings because I feel like he's
trying to guilt trip you through me and I don't like that.
*sits with you and shares mince pie* It's
just not great all around lately. You're going through stuff, I'm having moods,
it's been rough with other people including new friends
BEX, 4:04 p.m.
Wait...what did he say?
Please?
I'm cooking dinner so replies slow
SIGYN
I'll tell you, but you need to understand
that you are not responsible for how he is feeling and you cannot take back
your decision just because of it.
PENRYN
…regrets. Reading back on this, it’s likely Michael was genuinely
confused because Bex was talking about him but not to him.
SIGYN
BEX, 5:02 p.m.
I understand. I just wanted to know so I
am...not validated...but...I don't even know what I wanna say ya know? Lol
Yea I can see what you mean
SIGYN, 11:18 p.m.
Yeah, I mean, I know you want to be aware of things. I just don't want you to feel like you have to change your mind just because he's taking it badly
SIGYN, 1:50 p.m.
I'm over here now :P
BEX, 2:52 pm
Hey sorry hun. Me and steve just got into a huge fight and I'm a little pissy right now. But still here.. I guess just not really myself.
SIGYN
Oh no! What happened?
BEX
To the lady who watches Rhett
And I ONLY found it because he had a seizure and used his phone to call emergency. Unlocked his phone...no homescreen...just this.
He said nothing happened...so we will see when I go to confront her tomorrow morning
SIGYN
WTF.
BEX
Yea...and I know he erases his messages for storage on his phone and he always does that but that was the ONLY messages from her.
Everything else is gone.
SIGYN
That is fucked UP
And he has the audacity to be snippy about Mike?
BEX
Right! Thank you!
Who by the way I am getting so tired of dealing with atm
SIGYN
Yeah no he's annoying to me too
BEX
So hiding in the bath trying to calm down. I had to call a friend to cone get Rhett cause Steve refused to go to the hospital cause he started to have a sizure...and since my phone was still on emergency I had to use his to call that friend and those messages popped up. So I took a picture, then called my friend and she came over and sat with Rhett I her car while I yelled at Steve once he was better
I mean....yelled...and I never yell
SIGYN
I am so sorry. He's being a jerk!
(3:00 p.m.)
BEX
I mean it wasn't like I went looking for them. I unlocked his phone and boom! There they were. No home screen nothing..just that!
SIGYN
He should have at least been transparent with you that he was talking like that with someone & not let you find out like that.
BEX
That's literally what I raged at him about.
SIGYN
I hear you!
BEX
I'm mad cause you didn't tell me and I found out this way...I'm also mad cause when we jokingly talked about it together when all three of us were tipsy that night at our bonfire a few months ago I said NO
SIGYN
:O
HE SHOULD RESPECT THAT WTF
BEX
He says he doesn't know why he does things like that.
And he's been diagnosed before with this personality thing where he does something and then not k it why...so I don't know but I'm not buying it
I even thru it into his face that I talked to him about everything when it came to mike....so....
I mean I feel kinda bad cause before our friend came over to take Rhett outside I exploded at him...like hella exploded and Rhett got upset and told us both to stop...
Rhett shouldn't have to hear that
I remember my parents fighting and it still messes with me
SIGYN
I mean, I'm sorry he had to witness that too, but you've every right to be mad
BEX
This isn't the first time he's done this either
I caught him...or I should say fate showed me again...when we first moved up here together.
He asked me to check his emails for a link that he needed and when I went into his phone to find it..BAM! Emails to at least two other women saying things like "this is my phone number." Or "this is my work schedule." Granted reading them and the replies nothing ever came from them...but that's not the point
I mean...having to hold in my anger while the eats were here was so hard...cause he was having a bad one so I called...but he being a stubborn ass refused to go.
SIGYN
YEAH! Loki was fully aware of me flirting with Valentino as Sebastian
BEX
I told him before...NEVER hide things from me cause Fate will ALWAYS show me and I will find out..
SIGYN
(speaking of which, I did block him as Sebastian and Trent but now he's interested in Faustus -_-)
BEX
I wasn't even looking Sigyn! I wasn't! That's what's so bad! Fate just literally...oh here ya go! Ughhhh!
I'm so mad right now still I can't think straight. I don't ever want to see her again and I don't want steve to talk to her again...but that seems petty...and Rhett loves daycare....I'm so confused
SIGYN
It's not petty
I'd say let Rhett keep going to daycare but keep ur interaction with her to a bare minimum
BEX
I told him this was the absolute last and final time and I mean it. One more slip...just one...and I'm done. And that kinda scares me cause I can't raise Rhett on my own...and now I'm thinking in that vein and I might have a panic attack later cause omg I was so mad I was shaking...I wasn't even crying and that's when you run with me. Hehehe *trying to be a little funny* but this sucks
SIGYN
Other than talking strictly about Rhett, they can fuck themselves and the whores they rode in on
BEX
I shoved it all down...the rage and the tears and I know that's not good but he doesn't get to see me cry...not over this....ughhhh...why? Why can't he talk to me...he says he needs confidence to say what he wants or thinks and he asked me to help him after we got done yelling..well...I yelled, he actually cried....
I'm rambling....
SIGYN
You're within your rights
Keep rambling, I'm listening!
And maybe he SHOULD see you cry so he'll know how bad it affected you. It's not a sign of weakness, it's like... look how bad you hurt me, from you
From him, I don't really know what to think. Flirting can be an addictive habit, but there's no reason to do it behind your partner's back
Either you let them know you're doing it & it's okay to continue, or it's not okay & you quit it
BEX
He came in to talk to me while I'm in the tub. Bleh
SIGYN
Bleh
did you tell him to leave?
BEX
I did. He did. And I'm talking to Kelly now so I feel a little better.
SIGYN
That's good. Is she clarifying things?
(4:00 p.m.)
BEX
Yea...kinda
SIGYN
*hugs*
BEX
*hugs*
My bath waters cold but I don't wanna get out...sad is that? Lol
SIGYN
Drain it partially and add more hot water
that's what I do
BEX
Yea but then he'll know I'm hiding 🤣
SIGYN
You are not hiding, you are taking space :p
BEX
I might go play a video game and kill things. Hehehe
SIGYN
That sounds like good stress relief. I'm getting a massage
BEX
Nice! I need one. Hehehe
SIGYN
Yeah :3 getting all the bad vibes from before just pressed right out
Faustus is going to be a lot more careful; he doesn't *have* as strong of a personality or preferences as Sebastian, so he's going to "let" Valentino mold him into however he wants (except when I need to take a break & then he's just going to be offline) until Freya shows up on the scene like "um, what's going on here? Faustus? This isn't you?"
(6:44 p.m.) Anyway, I hope everything gets sorted on your end, for the better.
/end
SIGYN, 1:26 p.m.
Hi :D I have a spare you can use for Freya cause I'm never gonna use it again. It's [since been converted to a Rebecca Bunch account].
BEX, December 16th, 12:00 p.m.
Are you alive?!
SIGYN, today at 9:20 a.m.
HI sorry! I'm finally being discharged
& going home
BEX
Discharged? Are you alright? I'm SO HAPPY
to see your messages!! ♥ ♥ ♥
SIGYN
Yeah emergency psychiatric. They don't let
you keep your phone
Sorry to make you worry, I just had a
crappy state of mind
BEX
*glomps you and hugs you tight* I am
soooooo happy you are alright! *giggles softly* I was worried! But you're ok,
so I'm good
SIGYN
*huggggg*
Not being on FB and especially not chatting
with you is some kind of fresh hell ngl
BEX
I can imagine.
I missed you too ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
SIGYN
💞❤️💖
So now that I'm FREEDOM!!!!
BEX
Now I can relax. hehehehe. I saw your stats
and kinda freaked a little. :P
SIGYN
before we get to all the new spam I'll be
spamming you with, and now that everything's all good, will you be able to look
over the old spam today? XD
Sorry again DX
BEX
did I not? *talks to self* I think I
scouraed your messenger looking at least for a number. lol lol but yea, I will
actually go through and give a looksee again, slower this time. 😂🥰😘
SIGYN
XD
My phone number is [REDACTED]
BEX
well that was easy! *giggles*
mine is [REDACTED]
SIGYN
But chances are, if you can't reach me on
messenger, I'm unreachable. I rarely answer my phone because scam calls
BEX
gotcha! I don't answer mine if I don't know
the number either
SIGYN
I'll program you in
BEX
me too for you!
Ugh! One sec, damn dog is in the litter
box! EWWWWW
SIGYN
dammit Mia XD
when you get a sec pls lmk what you think
of the vignettes I sent you XD they'll go in main at some point but I wanted
your thoughts
(9:54 a.m.)
These were alongside that mural
I love boats
BEX
ooohhh! Pretty! ♥
I used to go out on boats all the time when
I was younger.
SIGYN, 11:06 a.m.
Oh LUCKY
I think I went on a couple tour boats in
Europe a decade ago.
(11:18 a.m.) I'ma work on converting one of my accounts to a Trent account 😈
(12:10 p.m.)
Almost finished!
BEX
I've just finished lunch and had to
chase.mia in the freezing rain cause she somehow got out of the fence! Damn
dog!
She's lucky I love her!
SIGYN, 9:55 a.m.
almost forgot to send you those from VC
earlier
SIGYN, 12:19 p.m.
GOOD MORNFTERNOON HII SORRY I OVERSLEPT
&MISSED IT
(2:07 p.m.)
How's your tummy BTW?
(2:25 p.m.)
Rebecca missed your video chat. – 2:25
p.m.
(4:28 p.m.) Audio message:
(9:02 p.m.) I'm
rewatching The Lincoln Lawyer and it looks like Matthew McConaughey actually
plays the lawyer, and Ryan Phillippe plays the client.
Lol oops
(9:23 p.m.) There's a girl who looks vaguely like Rebecca but on coke
ELLE, 3:39 p.m.
Hi :) I got
your card thanks for your good wishes 😊
SIGYN
♥
Are you
doing okay?
ELLE
yeah I'm
doing better I'm coughing a bit and I'm tired a sneezing a bit but other then
that i'm ok
SIGYN
I'm glad
you're doing better; hope you fully recover soon!
ELLE
thanks :)
/end 3:41 p.m.
Snipped audio here:
SIGYN, 10:40 a.m.
Heads up: I'll be spamming the TV Time chat
with out of context Lucifer commentary. Hope you're holding up ok 🤗
(12:19 p.m.)
[snip baby video]
(4:39 p.m.)
bruh
That baby is ROWDY this evening
You missed a video chat with Rebecca.
– 4:41 p.m.
BEX, 4:46 p.m.
SIGYN, 5:46 p.m.
[snip voice messages]
(6:22 p.m.) I
love her
BEX
That's cute. 🥰
SIGYN
She has such wholesome energy in those
scenes
That's actually primarily what reminded me
of Freya and then I thought she looks a bit like her too
she has the sweetest energy in those
scenes. I'll splice them all together for you but it'll take a few days lol
E/N: Snipping all the BHE flashback
videos, except ones with additional commentary, from this chat because I’ve already made a comprehensive one.
BEX, 6:51 p.m.
Sorry hun. Not having Goodluck with Rhett.
So replies slow for a bit. Lol
SIGYN
it's fine! I'm just sending clips of what
I'm watching. I know bebby is beastling
(7:20 p.m.) I
feel bad that I think the little boy in the show is kinda ugly XD
(7:50 p.m.)
(8:00 p.m.) just
Eve Hewson being precious and the cuteness of her character's friendship with
Rob
(8:13 p.m.) I
love those dresses and their castle
SIGYN, 12:06 p.m.
mornfternoon! :D how's the housecleaning
going? I woke up with a cleaning bug too. And then had to sweep up some dead
bugs from under the sink
(6:13 p.m.)
SIGYN, 12:08 p.m.
Short answer is I panicked. I felt both
isolated and trapped (therapist flaked on me, it was a holiday so no one else
at the agency was available) and wanted to take myself away from the pain and
anxiety. It happens every so often, used to be every couple of weeks but now
it's been about a year. I'm still alive, which I guess is okay
I'm sorry. I know I said I wouldn't, or
something like that. I just flipped out.
BEX
*hugs extra tight* hun...you had me worried
sick! I'm just glad you're ok! I'm sorry I wasn't around, but please don't do
that again or anything that will hurt you. I love you! ❤❤❤
SIGYN
I'm so sorry, again. It wasn't because you
specifically weren't there; you're important to me & our stories are the
highlight of our day, but what happened was, Loki said that fucked up shit I
told you about. Then I scheduled an emergency appointment with my therapist.
She flaked. I took some sleeping pills and crashed. The next day I was supposed
to be at my dad's for Thanksgiving but Loki didn't want to take me because I
was "bitchy" (hung over from sleeping pills & anxious to get to
my dad's). My dad wasn't picking up the phone. I flipped out and cut myself.
Loki basically said I was just misbehaving because I didn't get my way
BEX
What a horrible person he is! Honestly hun,
you got to get away from him.
SIGYN
My sister says I've got to find a caretaker
for Lucius and me so we can kick him out
(2:21 p.m.) I
don't know where to find one though and I'm freaking out
I don't like thinking about sex outside of,
like, our discussions and
Anyway he comes into my room and runs his
hands over my body (NO) and when I say no he asks why and then he mentions
things that are sex adjacent and I panic and then he uses THAT as an excuse to
say cuddling is a waste of time and we shouldn't be together
(2:45 p.m.) I
don't care if we're together but I want my baby with me and I don't know where
to find a caretaker
Sorry. I'm just freaking out. Anyway, I
finally got a lock on my door
When you have a moment though, it's your
turn on everything I'm pretty sure
(4:42 p.m.)
Rebecca missed your video chat. – 4:42
p.m.
SIGYN, 5:51 p.m.
(6:57 p.m.) other
than me having an episode, I hope you had a wonderful thanksgiving ❤️ I was able to make it to my dad's,
not able to help with preparation but we did get to eat, and we found out
Lucius likes stuffing. I know you've probably got some eventful things going
on, so just wanted to let you know I'm going to try to get round to editing and
uploading our fic :D I'll send you things that make me think of you as per
usual but don't be alarmed about not responding or anything like that, esp if
you're having fun with the family 💖 Thank you for being there for me all these years & I love you
very much! Cheers!
SIGYN, 11:42 a.m.
so I tried to ☠ myself and Loki is acting like I'm
just misbehaving. Later I asked if he still loves me and he says we talk about
it later
BEX, 12:16 p.m.
You did what now! Why would you do that?
Are you ok?
SIGYN, 9:03 a.m.
[snip baby video]
(9:37 a.m.) Good
morning!
Loki is being a lazybones so I get to hang
out with Lucius and actually get this house clean
(9:53 a.m.)
(12:37 p.m.)
that's Vae Victus and she's a good kitty
(1:12 p.m.)
(2:07 p.m.) My stupid therapist cancelled on me and no one wants to talk to me I'm fucking going back to bed I hate my fucking life
(just stuff I didn't want to put in Sassy RP Archive)
SIGYN, 4:44 p.m.
I'm mad at Loki because Lucius is having a
fit and Loki said that's why he needs a nap at 3 every day. But 3 is when Loki
came to pick us up and Loki said he didn't think Lucius would take a nap anyway
BEX
men are so weird. You can't disrupt a
baby/toddlers schedule and he should know that.
SIGYN
Honestly it's pretty fucked up. He came and
got us early, claims he didn't feel like having it over his head that he was
going to be driving later, then got upset with me for not giving him a nap at 3
when that was the time he arrived to come get us. I told him that's the time he
arrived to come get us and he said "well I didn't think he'd go down for a
nap anyway". Lucius was having fun playing with his blocks and everything.
On the way home Loki said he (Loki) wanted to take a nap but he wasn't going
to, and I told him he should just plug in my TV and go rest. Loki declined.
Then when we got home acted like he was dismissing me and saying "you're
free to go" when I had no intention of going
Now Lucius is strapped into his napnap
chair anyway because Loki got "tired of him" crying, when the reason
he is crying is because Loki is acting like Lucius is getting in the way of him
playing video games and listening to videos on his phone. He's not cuddling the
baby, so the baby is upset, so his solution is to strap the baby into his
chair.
Oh he's acting like IM the reason Lucius
didn't get a nap though
I try to comfort poor confused little
Lucius and Loki goes "stop buying into it and just go"
BEX
Ummm! No! Loki messed up Lucius's schedule.
That is his fault Lucius is upset and you do not just ignore a baby when they
are crying with a certain tone. He needs to unplug and pay more attention to
his son. Just my two cents.
SIGYN
💯💯💯💯
Agreed
Loki's being a little bitch. He's claiming
he's unhappy but not doing anything about it. He's claiming he wants a nap but
not go taking one
He's shooing me out of the room when I want
to spend time with my son
BEX
I mean, I know I am on here a LOT, but I
try to pay attention to Rhett when he tries to get my attention. I'm NOT
perfect by any means, and when Steve calls me on being on to long, that is when
I go silent...just fyi. ♥ ♥ ♥
SIGYN
Oh no I mean, I'm always happy to VC with
Rhett so he gets some attention too from Lucius and me, but yeah If you have to
go "afk baby" I totally understand
BEX
Your son, you decide. Is exactly what I
told steve when we got into a dispute at one point. I carried him for 8 months,
I gave birth to him, I decide.
SIGYN
Half the time when I try to VC you it's so
Lucius can chat
ooh okay. My dad says I need to put my foot
down more too
5:00 p.m.
BEX
I think you do too but I understand not
really 'wanting' too cause you live with him and don't want to cause 'drama'.
even more so when he is the way he is.
SIGYN
Maybe I sleep in their room tonight and
wake up with the baby
At this stage I think I'm a better parent.
I know my Lucius. He wants love and attention and he's entitled to it. Loki
treating him like he "has" to take care of him rather than is a joy
to take care of him is fucked up
BEX
I totally 100% agree with you.
(5:19 p.m.) My
dad was checking in to see if Lucius is okay
He offered to come pick us up but I don't
think Lucius could get to sleep in his crib there
Eh, he's trying to guilt me or panic me into fucking him so he doesn't leave
BEX
I am SOOOOOO disappointed in him right now.
No...disappointed isn't even the word
I can't....I just...UGH! He makes me want
to throw something....
are YOU ok? *hugs*
SIGYN
Agreed, but I'm not displaying emotion
right now because I don't want him using it against me to try to claim I'm an
unfit mother
BEX
I mean, how are you handling this?
SIGYN
I'm upset but I can't react where he can
see it.
BEX
why would he do that when it's clear, from
what we talked about eariler that he doesn't have any interest in his son?
SIGYN
To punish me.
BEX
every time we talk...he is playing a game
or on the computer....I can say so if it comes down to it.
SIGYN
He says he does that because he's dealing
with the baby all day
BEX
NO he isn't!!
SIGYN
"dealing with the baby"
not raising our son.
SIGYN, 12:11 a.m.
Finished!
ELLE, 5:43 p.m.
Looks cool
SIGYN
Thank you. I believe you commissioned this from me
back in March; would you still like to buy it?
ELLE
the teal kinda throws it off would you be upset if I
didn't buy it
SIGYN
No, I'll let you select some more suitable yarn skeins
for the one you want :)
ELLE
ok :) but first show me pictures of the yarn I don't
want you to buy it if I don't like it :)
SIGYN
Would you be willing to go on Amazon .com and just
send me links to the yarns you want?
ELLE
sure I can look when I get a chance
SIGYN
I can add them to my project list and then get them
maybe next month or so
ELLE
ok sounds good
/END 5:53 p.m.
